Stepping Into The Great Unknown

The power of scent for memory recall has continued to amaze me. I have learned so much more from this and am taking steps to no longer sit aside as uneducated to what I am placing on and in my body. I am doing more of my own research and finding more sources. I know I am not alone, I am the 1 in 4 (miscarriage) and 1 in 160 (stillbirth) who have known infant loss.

A long overdue thank you

I had every intention of writing this thank you months ago, but going back to the hospital in my mind is a place I can't go often. It's something I carefully have trained my mind to avoid to stay functional. In order to properly say this I needed to: I know that you did not … Continue reading A long overdue thank you

A rush of memory

I'm not really sure where I am right now. I've had a strange rush of Facebook memories that have been reminding me of what trajectory my life was once headed. I see pictures of my daughter a year ago and remember how excited she was to give her baby brother hugs inside my womb. I … Continue reading A rush of memory


11 months in heaven 

Today baby boy I thank you for allowing me the opportunity to share your story with a total stranger today. I always dread as the calendar gets closer to the 26th. Just another reminder that time has moved on without you here. My husband can testify im usually an emotional mess on the 25th of … Continue reading 11 months in heaven 

Not Where I Thought I’d Be

This has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. This most recent loss is not how I thought I would be introducing our third child to the internet world. We thank everyone who has supported us so much this week. I know many ask what they can do to help. Really I have no answer. In a state of shock I'm still trying to put my own oxygen mask on before helping others. Once I get some more oxygen I'll let you know.

The mom with 2 faces 

I wanted to update everyone on some exciting updates with my writing. I have been accepted as a guest post blogger on still standing magazine. If anyone is looking for great resources on child loss and grief this is such a great resource and so many topics. I am so excited in this new writing … Continue reading The mom with 2 faces 


Some times the constant reminder you may have a trigger day coming is worse than the actual day. Some days it's all around when you least expect it!

A Fresh Beginning

I love when there happens to be an inexplicable sign from somewhere that there's beauty we're not even seeing. I often feel living in the Midwest prairie that I forget that even if I'm not looking at a mountain or ocean it is all a part of God's Earth. Through the years I have gotten … Continue reading A Fresh Beginning

The Elephant Never Forgets

There's maybe more meaning to the saying 'an elephant never forgets' than you thought you knew. These animals are gentle giants walking this Earth who have so much teach us.

When She Believes 

I don't really have much to say about today other than I'm trying to make a more purposeful time for myself and what I am fulfilled by. I'm looking forward to this time where everything goes through a rebirth. It's a time for new beginnings and starts. I am making sure that my calendar and … Continue reading When She Believes 

One of My Grief Writing Inspirations

I cannot say enough how inspiring Sheryl Sandberg is personally and professionally as a woman teaching other women to Lean In. In May 2015 Dave Goldberg, then CEO of tech company SurveyMonkey, husband of top Facebook executive Sheryl Sandberg and father of their two children, passed away unexpectedly while on vacation in Mexico. The way … Continue reading One of My Grief Writing Inspirations